This is where i stand,
stubborn, this i know.
Like i said, “Personality doesnt change” but,
boy i think you are the same.
I’ve reflected on what happened & you know what?
I’ll never let myself fall into the trap called “You”
You, it made me believe that it could help me,
You, was everything i thought.. I needed

This here is where you are to apologise,
But you don’t think it’s wise.
You kept saying “did I let you down?”
I just replied “Nah, I don’t think you did”
But bud, you did.
First you didn’t listen, second you broke the trust.
Bud, you let me down.
Now I don’t know what to say. 
How do I explain my anger here?
Should I be silent? Should I be loud?
I should not have allowed,
Allowed this to happen,
I TRUSTED you,
No-body knew.
A circular motion is all we do.
I can’t TRUST you.

Nothing can change what you found in me, something that no-one can replace. 
You found that lil voice i thought i never had. I now know why you said those things, those things that hurt real bad. It hurt so bad that i let my guard down and let everyone see me cry. 

You were my stone of hope, my stone of strength. 
I feel so lost, i feel i cant live without your presents. 
I was looking forward to seeing you, i thought about what you said to me that afternoon. 
I came looking but you weren’t here. 
This was a big tragedy. My world is upside down. 

Iam feeling broken. 
No-one i trust will help now that you are gone. 
For whatever reason that has been. 
You could have at least said goodbye. 

Iam feeling broke, for what has been done. Iam feeling broke, now that i feel i don’t belong

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How can things turn out for the better, 
When all the people around her are sore and bitter.
Things seem like theres no light,
She prays that one day that her strength will become her might. 

She hopes for better days, but her hope fades away.
When will it end for her? 
The pain, the sorrow, 
How can she believe that there is a better tomorrow? 

The darkness that she holds in her heart,
Some how, some way, will never be ripped apart..

If I was the one, why treat me bad?
I think its sad.
I really thought you could help me.
Help me to be free,
help me to dream,
help me to have hope.
I HATE you but, i LOVE you,
this much i know is true.
If i could change the past,
i dont think this obsession would last.
Everything is so close to my heart,
i just dont know where to start.
Feelings up and down,
its spinning, it has no ground..

Is this how it ends? 
We can never pretend.
The lies, the hate.
I hope there is more to my fate. 
I can’t handle seeing you with others. 
I miss how we play under the covers.
The way you walk, the way you talk.
It makes me feel different now than ever.
Lighter than a feather.
This world means nothing, unless you are here.
Baby, don’t make me shed a tear. 
I miss the walks by the beach,
But, now you are out of reach.

Just when you think your over that boy,

you dont know your heart is being played like a toy. 

Let them come back into your heart,

he said “remember, right back from the start?”

It brings back memories,

your phone call, plays in my head like a song, contemporary.

Like when Mario sings ”.. I know when you love him and you wanna make it work and I can’t help but think that I knew you first ..” 

Its like you knew me before the day we first meet, to the last time i saw you.

i know you love me this part is true. 

From the very start i knew it wasnt gonna be,

but you keept sayin your the one for me. 

i cant afford to keep you in my life,

i gotta take off, now iam in flight. 

maybe we can be, in another lifetime.

you are always mine.

from now and forever.

until that day we are together.

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tryin to find your place in life,
like a melody repeating over and over, 
sometimes it feels like your cutting hard like a knife, 
when will this pain and confusion part? 
cause deep down I can’t hear my beating heart. 

lost in a world of strangers, 
people you know well but, 
you seem to be the struggler.
the one who saves the world, 
who is gonna save the hero? 

in my mind I see things that aren’t ment to be, 
and in this world I believe it’s not for me. 
trying day after day to fight, 
I think it’s time to take off, make a mid night flight. 

cause in MY world, 
there isn’t a thing worth having,
when really nothing is worth living.. 

fuck this cruel world ! can fuckin satisfy no cunt unless they thinkin theres something up, im gonna go and die in a poxy fuckin hole !